Blackberry Smoke - "Ain't Much Left of Me".
This song just keeps coming up on my Texas Hippie Coalition playlist....
This song just keeps coming up on my Texas Hippie Coalition playlist....
And of all the songs I identify with, this is probably the closest to what I feel and how I am at this point in my life.
Everybody's got their own triumphs and tragedies and although I'm likely a lot better off than most, I still have had my fair share of setbacks.
Moving to Santa Fe is starting over for me.... Emotionally, Spiritually and Physically.
They say that you get Wiser as you get Older.... I say that's Bullshit!
About the only thing that getting Older has taught me is that I'm not near the person I thought I was.
Coming to grips with my Failures, Flaws and Foibles has been a humbling but fulfilling process.
At this point, I have accepted who I am and I really don't have any expectations and am living Life one day at a time.... which I will talk more about later in this post.
For now.... let's enjoy some Blackberry Smoke!
"Ain't Much Left Of Me"
[Verse]
Well my fall from grace was a sight to see
Good turned to bad and bad turned to misery
I found out what it is and what it's not
And all I ask for sure ain't what I got,no
[Chorus]
Well I've been rained on, rode hard and put up wet
Danced with the devil 'til I'm in debt
Took all I got and there ain't much left of me
I've been knocked down, drug out and left for dead
Barely held together by a few old threads
And I'm still here there ain't much left to see,no
Well I'm still holding on and there ain't much left of me
[Verse]
Thought that I hit bottom but I ain't there yet
'Cause you'd be surprised of how low a man can get
I watched stolen dreams slip through my hands
And now I'm getting out of here still while I still can
[Chorus]
Well I've neen rained on, rode hard and put up wet
Danced with the devil 'til I'm in debt
Took all I got and there ain't much left of me
I've been knocked down, drug out and left for dead
Barely held together by a few old threads
And I'm still here there ain't much left to see,no
Well I'm still holding on and there ain't much left of me
That's right
[Verse]
Well my fall from grace was a sight to see
Nobody even cared what became of me
Do I have to get down on my knees
And ask the Lord ,Lord have mercy on me
[Chorus]
Well I've been rained on, rode hard and put up wet
Danced with the devil 'til I'm in debt
Took all I got and there ain't much left of me
I've been knocked down, drug out and left for dead
Barely held together by a few old threads
And I'm still here there ain't much left to see,no
Well I'm still holding on and there ain't much left of me
There ain't much left of me
I said there ain't much left of me,no
Yeah well there ain't much left of me
Well my fall from grace was a sight to see
Good turned to bad and bad turned to misery
I found out what it is and what it's not
And all I ask for sure ain't what I got,no
[Chorus]
Well I've been rained on, rode hard and put up wet
Danced with the devil 'til I'm in debt
Took all I got and there ain't much left of me
I've been knocked down, drug out and left for dead
Barely held together by a few old threads
And I'm still here there ain't much left to see,no
Well I'm still holding on and there ain't much left of me
[Verse]
Thought that I hit bottom but I ain't there yet
'Cause you'd be surprised of how low a man can get
I watched stolen dreams slip through my hands
And now I'm getting out of here still while I still can
[Chorus]
Well I've neen rained on, rode hard and put up wet
Danced with the devil 'til I'm in debt
Took all I got and there ain't much left of me
I've been knocked down, drug out and left for dead
Barely held together by a few old threads
And I'm still here there ain't much left to see,no
Well I'm still holding on and there ain't much left of me
That's right
[Verse]
Well my fall from grace was a sight to see
Nobody even cared what became of me
Do I have to get down on my knees
And ask the Lord ,Lord have mercy on me
[Chorus]
Well I've been rained on, rode hard and put up wet
Danced with the devil 'til I'm in debt
Took all I got and there ain't much left of me
I've been knocked down, drug out and left for dead
Barely held together by a few old threads
And I'm still here there ain't much left to see,no
Well I'm still holding on and there ain't much left of me
There ain't much left of me
I said there ain't much left of me,no
Yeah well there ain't much left of me
One thing that hasn't changed is my love for great tasting nutritious food like this mass of mess of Spring Mix, Arugula and tomatoes on the cold side surrounded my a hot ring of sauteed bok choy, kale, onions and jalapeno with a half a Colossal Chicken breast thrown in for protein and a topping of blackberries, marinated artichoke hearts and kalamata olives!
Snow in Santa Fe!
Winter Wonderland!
Another song of self realization describing a life of mistakes and disappointment.
I continue to be amazed at the people I meet who are so focused on the future 3.... 6.... 9 months down the road.
Hell.... I'm doing good to just....
"Save Today"
Well fortune favors not the young
Spoken words and songs unsung, right?
I never learned from my mistakes
I guess I don't have what it takes, right?
I wish that I was strong, that I could walk away
All this time I've lost, I feel the cost repaid
So save today, the secrets that you prayed for
And wait, cause we deserve it so much more
So save, the secrets that you prayed for, awake
I'll see you on the other side
A tortured soul have I become
It keeps me safe and leaves me numb, right?
Cause in this dream I'm wide awake
The one I love I did forsake, right?
I wish that I was wrong, that you'll come home again
All this time I've lost, I'll never find again
So save today, the secrets that you prayed for
And wait, cause we deserve it so much more
So save, the secrets that you prayed for, awake
I'll see you on the other side
Say you can help me now
Say you can help me now
Say you can help me now
Say you can help me now
So save today, the secrets that you prayed for
And wait, cause we deserve it so much more
So save, the secrets that you prayed for, awake
I'll see you on the other side
So save today, the secrets that you prayed for
And wait, cause we deserve it so much more
So save, the secrets that you prayed for, awake
I'll see you on the other side
Spoken words and songs unsung, right?
I never learned from my mistakes
I guess I don't have what it takes, right?
I wish that I was strong, that I could walk away
All this time I've lost, I feel the cost repaid
So save today, the secrets that you prayed for
And wait, cause we deserve it so much more
So save, the secrets that you prayed for, awake
I'll see you on the other side
A tortured soul have I become
It keeps me safe and leaves me numb, right?
Cause in this dream I'm wide awake
The one I love I did forsake, right?
I wish that I was wrong, that you'll come home again
All this time I've lost, I'll never find again
So save today, the secrets that you prayed for
And wait, cause we deserve it so much more
So save, the secrets that you prayed for, awake
I'll see you on the other side
Say you can help me now
Say you can help me now
Say you can help me now
Say you can help me now
So save today, the secrets that you prayed for
And wait, cause we deserve it so much more
So save, the secrets that you prayed for, awake
I'll see you on the other side
So save today, the secrets that you prayed for
And wait, cause we deserve it so much more
So save, the secrets that you prayed for, awake
I'll see you on the other side
Here's one way to Save Today!
Back to Basics....
Grits, Eggs, Bacon....
With a Creatine - Protein mix side.
Anybody that knows me.... or should I say.... that knew me....
Knew that I was a guy that planned ahead..... 1 year plan... 5 year plan... 10 year plan....
Guess what?
None of those plans worked. Yep - they all failed.
Probably mostly my fault but there was a lot that wasn't in my control and I was too stupid and stubborn to realize it and just....
Let go.
As I have related in several previous posts, one of the best things that happened to me was to just...
Give up.
Give up my plans, my goals, my wants and my wishes....
Just fucking give up.
I began that process several years ago.
And it has been the most liberating, de-stressing and joy filled process I have ever gone through.
I don't reveal all this because I'm trying to create some sort of sympathy support system....
I reveal it because it's something that a lot of people would never consider and yet probably should.
Stop hoping, Stop dreaming, Stop projecting.....
And just live your life.... one day at a time
I was describing this philosophy to a friend of mine and out of their mouth came a phrase I had never heard but that inspired me to write this post.....
Tomorrow is Today Again!
That's about the best description I have ever heard of the concept of enjoying one Day, one Minute and one Breath at a Time.
And Right or Wrong -
That's where I am right now.
And where I am right now is probably the Best Place I've been in my Entire Life.
It's strange how Life continues to surprise me.
Life is really pretty simple when you take it one day at a time.
And just let it reveal your own path of.....
Discovery.
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