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Sunday, November 29, 2015

People that understand and function in the Physical World have a huge advantage....

Over those who don't.

I see this in spades in Santa Fe.

You have to understand I came from a world of Physical Work - of understanding of Design and Construction where industry abounds and leads and all that live in it and around it have a pretty good working knowledge of how things work and how work is done.

People who create Design Documents, People who can read them and then conduct a symphony of Tools, Materials and Equipment to build things, solve problems, move mountains and then step over them like they're walking up stairs.

People here in Santa Fe don't have a fucking clue how the real world works.

They drive their Subarus off into snow banks and then get out and have that "Well - Shit just happens" look on their face.

Hell - half the people I see can't even drive a fucking car safely.

They talk a good talk - understanding feelings and emotions and the nuances of how relationships should work and how people should think and treat each other and the philosophies of Buddha and a dozen other religions - and can't even flip a breaker when it trips.

I know.... I know.... everybody doesn't have that skill set.

Well - guess what - they need it.

I've often said that I am right on the cusp.... of the age that represents the edge of the perfect balance in history between Old School ways of doing things and the New World of Technology.

I've met a few my age that are better at it than me..... but I also see many people that are a few years older than me that are still asking directions on how to get somewhere when they have an iPhone in their hand with a voice command Maps app.

I could give you countless examples that I have already seen of how oblivious people in Santa Fe are to the physical aspects of the world.

But it would be like beating a dead horse.

They're not gonna change.

I just sit back and watch the show.

And thank God I grew up in an environment where I am aware of.....

The Physical World and How it Works.

I say "I don't know" a lot more these days.....

It's a post title that requires less explanation than the environment and experience that warrants the title.

In several recent conversations I've had, different people have asked me how I feel about different things...

And my answer has been repeatedly....

"I don't know."

Which is a way of saying.....

I have no feelings.

Which is kind of revealing and disturbing at the same time.

I have lived so long without any deep feelings for anything that I've come to the conclusion that I've lost the capacity for...

Deep Feelings.

Which is good in a way.

When you have no feelings, you have no commitment.

When you have no commitment, there is no way to become involved or engaged in anything.

You remain on the outside looking in.

It is a neutral ground where you experience neither Pleasure nor Pain.

It is an alone place....

And a Safe Place.

It has worked for me for many years.

It is likely a place I will remain

Till I die.

A Lot to be Thankful For....

Making a Pot of Veggies for a Thanksgiving Dinner with the Santa Fe Hiking group....

Starting with root veggies of multi-colored carrots, parsnips and sweet potato.


And the rest of the yummies....

Sweet onions, poblano peppers, orange bell pepper, yellow bell pepper, jalapeno pepper, green beans, asparagusYellow squash, Zucchini.... and a few other goodies.


Beautiful Thanksgiving plate!


Post Thanksgiving Six Pack!


My sentiments exactly..... listening to haunting and dark lyrics can help release you from the demons that haunt you!


Another women lead vocals band I am really liking now....

OTEP or OT3P..... led by Otep Shamaya....


"Battle not with monsters, lest ye become a monster, and if you gaze into the abyss, the abyss gazes into you." - Friedrich Nietzsche.

And they say MAN is the Apex Predator....

"Apex Predator"
She's pounding on the door
She's crawling on the floor
Oh, she's so coy...

She's scratching on the walls
She's clawing at the gauze
She's so coy...

She's gnawing on the ropes
She's pulling at the hooks
She's so coy...

Oh, you know she wants it
The way that she taunts me
Damn, she's so coy...

It's the Apex Predator
With a sermon for the listener
Seduce & Destroy...

Your head upon a stick
Would look really sick
But they would call me crazy
For the way I spoke to it

I'd ask about its day
Did it miss me while I was away?

Tight lipped from the stitches
It wouldn't have much to say

The rest would be kept in a 
Tight little dress

Propped up in the corner
A perfect little pet

Locked in a box
So I can keep stock
A trophy to show me 
That all is not lost

The writing on the wall
A psalm in napalm
Abandon all hope
But try to stay calm

Bleach to clean the curses
I exist, I'm not the first
Tell my mother I love her
I didn't suffer

Photos & fantasies
Virtuoso of crimes scenes
The Apex Predator...

But why does she look so much like me?

Nobody move, nobody gets hurt
But where's the fun in that 
I gotta satisfy the thirst

Nobody move, nobody gets hurt
But where's the fun in that 
Death is such a flirt

Nobody move, nobody gets hurt
But where's the fun in that 
You get what you deserve

Nobody move, nobody gets hurt
But where's the fun in that 
Survival of the worst...

It's the Apex Predator...

I'm the boss...

She's got a broken arm
I've got a broken heart
Boy, she's so coy...

She made a little fire
With a fork & electrical wire
Damn, she's so coy...

Blowtorch nightlight
Switchblade knife fights
FUCK! She's so coy...

Thunder in the distance
Gun shots or missiles?
My smile is artificial
The lock clicks, my eyes fix

The writing on the wall
A psalm in napalm
Abandon all hope
But try to stay calm

Bleach to clean the curses
I exist, I'm not the first
Tell my mother I love her
I didn't suffer

No regrets, no apologies
A self-fulfilling prophecy
The Apex Predator...

All I could smell was her hair........

...Burning......

Nobody move, nobody gets hurt
But where's the fun in that 
I gotta satisfy the thirst

Nobody move, nobody gets hurt
But where's the fun in that 
Death is such a flirt

Nobody move, nobody gets hurt
But where's the fun in that 
You get what you deserve

Nobody move, nobody gets hurt
But where's the fun in that 
Survival of the worst!!

But why does she look so much like me?

Like worms on a hook
That were plucked from the
Heart of the bodies of gods
For the wretched & lost..

Like worms on a hook
That were plucked from the
Heart of the bodies of gods
That men had forgot..

Like worms on a hook
That were plucked from the
Heart of the bodies of gods
That were rotting to DUST!!

The Apex Predator...

All I could smell was her hair......

...Burning......

Nobody move, nobody gets hurt
But where's the fun in that 
I gotta satisfy the thirst

Nobody move, nobody gets hurt
But where's the fun in that 
Death is such a flirt

Nobody move, nobody gets hurt
But where's the fun in that 
You get what you deserve

Nobody move, nobody gets hurt
But where's the fun in that 
Survival of the worst...

Nobody move, nobody gets hurt
But where's the fun in that 
I gotta satisfy the thirst

Nobody move, nobody gets hurt
But where's the fun in that 
Death is such a flirt

Nobody move, nobody gets hurt
But where's the fun in that 
You get what you deserve

Nobody move, nobody gets hurt
But where's the fun in that 
Survival of the worst!!

All I could smell was her hair.....
All I could smell was her hair.....

...Burning.......



Cerillos to Sangre de Cristos....


Ordered a pair of these.... super cushiony.... supposed to be easy on the knees.


Yep.... another female lead.... I think I've found a new groove....

Actually I don't Miss the Misery of being in a "meaningful relationship".... my memory is still pretty good.

Think I'll pass....


Checking out the new Violet Crown Theater at the Railyard...


Yes Aaron, Daniel Craig is my favorite Bond.


And the Plaza is lit up for Christmas!


Grits, Eggs, Turkey Bacon and TJ's Uncured Ham.


First Thanksgiving I've had out of Texas!

First Thanksgiving in Santa Fe!

Yep - I've got a lot to be thankful for.

Welcome to My Dope Show!

Out with Texas Hippie Coalition and in with....

In This Moment!

Kinda the way I'm living my Life right now.

Gotta say Maria Brink is one tough looking chick!


One of the best looking plates I've seen in a long time.....

Grilled potatoes, radicchio, Ribeye and veggies -  Yummie!


Another one of those Save Me from Myself songs....

"Take The Bullets Away"
(feat. Lacey Sturm)
I've got my finger on the trigger
One bullet in the gun
And I'm spinning the revolver
Thinking this could be the one

I tried to find religion
To see what I'd become
I was ruined by the world
But I blamed it on the Son

Am I worthless?
Am I filthy?
Am I too far gone for a remedy?
Will you help me?
'Cause I'm dying
To be something more than a memory
If I reach out
Can I trust you?
Will you help me see the light of one more day?
Take the bullets away
Take the bullets away

I've tried to build resistance
I've tried to start a war
But no one ever listened
I've bottled up the storm

Am I worthless?
Am I filthy?
Am I too far gone for a remedy?
Will you help me?
'Cause I'm dying
To be something more than a memory
If I reach out
Can I trust you?
Will you help me see the light of one more day?
Take the bullets away
Take the bullets away

You're so disarming
There's nothing left to fear
You're so disarming
I'd drop all my weapons to show you that I'm not afraid
Take the bullets away
Take the bullets away

Am I worthless?
Am I filthy?
Am I too far gone for a remedy?
Will you help me?
'Cause I'm dying
To be something more than a memory
If I reach out
Can I trust you?
Will you help me see the light of one more day?
Take the bullets away
Take the bullets away
Take the bullets away
Take the bullets away
Take the bullets away


It's kind of amazing that I can find absolutely NO ONE in Santa Fe that listens to this type of music.

Since music listening and appreciation is so much a part of my life, it is a huge disconnect!


Probably my favorite In This Moment song....

Love is Hate and Hate is Love - 

Sometimes....Pushing away is the only way to draw nearer.....


"Blood"
I hate you for the sacrifices you made for me
I hate you for every time you ever bled for me
I hate you for the way you smile when you look at me
I hate you for never taking control of me

I hate you for always saving me from myself
I hate you for always choosing me and not someone else
I hate you for always pulling me back from the edge
I hate you for every kind word you ever said
I'll bleed you dry now

Blood, blood, blood
Pump mud through my veins
Shut your dirty, dirty mouth
I'm not that easy

Blood, blood, blood
Pump mud through my veins
I'm a dirty, dirty girl
I want it filthy

Blood, blood, blood
Pump mud through my veins
Shut your dirty, dirty mouth
I'm not that easy

Blood, blood, blood
Pump mud through my veins
I'm a dirty, dirty girl
I want it filthy

I love you for everything you ever took from me
I love the way you dominate and you violate me
I love you for every time you gave up on me
I love you for the way you look when you lie to me
I love you for never believing in what I say
I love you for never once giving me my way
I love you for never delivering me from pain
I love you for always driving me insane
I'll bleed you dry now

Blood, blood, blood
Pump mud through my veins
Shut your dirty, dirty mouth
I'm not that easy

Blood, blood, blood
Pump mud through my veins
I'm a dirty, dirty girl
I want it filthy

Blood, blood, blood
Pump mud through my veins
Shut your dirty, dirty mouth
I'm not that easy

Blood, blood, blood
Pump mud through my veins
I'm a dirty, dirty girl
I want it filthy

(I hate you, I hate you, I love...)

Blood, blood, blood
Pump mud through my veins
Shut your dirty, dirty mouth
I'm not that easy

Blood, blood, blood
Pump mud through my veins
I'm a dirty, dirty girl
I want it filthy

Blood, blood, blood
Pump mud through my veins
Shut your dirty, dirty mouth
I'm not that easy

Blood, blood, blood
Pump mud through my veins
I'm a dirty, dirty girl
I want it filthy

I hate you for every time you ever bled for me


So.... what are my Drugs of Choice?

Strong Coffee 
Spicy Well Cooked Nutritious Food
Music that challenges your Mind, Imagination, Spirit and Body
Workouts that leave you on the floor spent and breathless
Cold, Wide Open Spaces with Clean, Fresh Air.....

Welcome to MY DOPE SHOW!


Fuck that fancy rope work....

Just give me some heavy dumbbells and get out of my way!


Can you say deep snow?


Face of a Crazy Man!

Yes - I am at 11000' in a CrossFit Eufaula T-shirt!

"To have what others want.....
You must do what others don't!"


That means breaking trail in waist deep snow for 2 hours!


Here Maria Brink teams up with Shinedown's Brent Smith!


Gorgeous, Haunting, Sensual..... I fucking love it!

"Sexual Hallucination"
(feat. Brent Smith Of Shinedown)
Red lips, a sinister tongue
(I'll taste you until I cant)
Our trip has just begun
(I'll fly with you til the end)
Psychotic voice
(You are in my veins now)
And there's no denying
(There's no denying)
As we both burst into flames

(You'll come down)
There's no coming down
(Higher ground)
Floating over ground
(Out of body)
Out of body
Inner mind
(I'm your slave)
This is what I crave
I'm lost, I'm saved
It's my obsession, possession began
(Physical, psychical, illumination)
Intoxication, Fascination
(Mystical, sexual hallucination)
Sexual (hallucination) Sexual Hallucination

You watch me come undone
(It makes me want you more)
I'm crawling into the unknown
(I'll follow you to the core)
I feel like I'm dying
(I'm right beside you)
You whisper "we're flying"
(There's no denying)
We both converge as one

(Don't come down)
There's no coming down
(Higher ground)
We're floating over ground
(Out of body)
Out of body
Inner mind
(I'm your slave)
This is what I crave
I'm lost, I'm saved
It's my obsession, possession began
(Physical, psychical, illumination)
Intoxication, Fascination
(Mystical, sexual hallucination)
Sexual (hallucination) Sexual (hallucination)
Sexual Hallucination

(I can barely breathe)
I can barely breathe
(I can barely move)
I can barely move
(I can barely) separate (me from) you
This is what I crave
To be your slave

Red lips, Sinister tongue

It's my obsession, possession began
(Physical, psychical, illumination)
Intoxication, Fascination
(Mystical, sexual, hallucination)
Sexual (hallucination) Sexual (hallucination)
Sexual Hallucination


Yep..... another Santa Fe sunset!


Home Sweet Home.....  for now anyway!


Oh yeah.... did I forget to tell ya.....


I love FIRE too!

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Catching up on Food, Cars, Music, Coffee, Working Out and Blake and Gwen

So - how ya doing out there America?

Thanksgiving is just around the corner - what do you have to be thankful for anyway?

Are you really happy?



Don't know about you.... but this plate of food goodness make me very happy and thankful!

Ground Turkey breast mix with sauted veggies with a pool of creamy grits, kalamata olive bread and fresh grapes and a fruit mix creatine / chocolate protein mix.


My typical morning routine is to stumble down the stairs - turn on the coffee pot, cut the pot to get the strongest coffee elixir possible, turn on my wonderful Samsung 55" with kick ass Bose Sound System and watch music videos till the caffeine kicks in.

Gotta respect Five Finger Death Punch and the Iraq tour they did to play for the soldiers!


If I didn't have the Stang, this is likely the outfit I would end up with..... a red monochrome Toyota Tacoma 4x4 Crew Cab with a long bed and a matching ARE bed cover.

Nice setup!


I've been reflecting on Life and Relationships a lot lately and have considered the "War or Silence" approach.

As always, I say "War is the Answer". 

Nice tribute to the 9/11 victims and in support of our soldiers.



You know - if I didn't know any better, I would think that, in the 9th season of the Voice, the ratings may be slipping, and they gotta have something else besides the Voice participants to get back on the media map....

So why not create an affair between Gwen and Blake?


Trying a new Coffee place along the Rail Trail at the corner of Cerillos and St Francis - Ohori's!


This song really captures how I view the world most of the time....

It's getting to be pretty ridiculous what we focus on and consider important - I just don't get it.

But guess what?  We are responsible - We feed the media and the media feeds us!

You wanna change the World - Stop Taking what the World is giving!

"Blow"
Sometimes it makes me wanna blow my fucking head off
Sometimes it makes me think the world has gone officially insane

Everything's a scandal
The news too hard to handle
The world is so unbearable like wearing socks with sandals
I'm lover not a fighter respectable to women
I ain't Chris Brown I don't feel the need to hit 'em
It's sad to see a 12 year old acting like a little ho
Taking naked pictures while she's livin' in her parents' home
Post 'em up on Twitter
It'd make you reconsider
Every time you go online to find a babysitter

Sometimes it makes me wanna blow my fucking head off
Sometimes it makes me wanna go a little mental
We celebrate the idiot
Pretend that we're so into it
Dumb down our intelligence
Just to make us relevant
Sometimes it makes me think the world has gone officially insane

The lovable NRA, they're totally to blame
The only people to actually have a "give your kid a gun" day
The government's a joke, a fuckin sinking boat
But hey, don't complain, you're the one who cast the vote
Kanye West says rock is dead, I guess he's off his meds again
He lost his mind, about the time he got with that Kardashian
What happened to De Niro
Reality stars are heroes
It's the proof that our IQs has finally dropped to zero

Sometimes it makes me wanna blow my fucking head off
Sometimes it makes me wanna go a little mental
We celebrate the idiot
Pretend that we're so into it
Dumb down our intelligence
Just to make us relevant
Sometimes it makes me think the world has gone officially insane
Think the world has gone officially insane [x2]

Stop!
And take the time to realize it's over
If you live to have some kids they'll hate you when they're older
They'll dump you in a home, to die there all alone
Finally you'll rest in peace not like they'll ever know
But, don't listen to a word I say cuz it don't really mean a thing
The world is full of hypocrites and I'm the fucking king
It's not like I mean it
We're all in agreement,
As soon as you hear this freaking song I'm sure you'll just delete it

Sometimes it makes me wanna blow my fucking head off
Sometimes it makes me wanna go a little mental
We celebrate the idiot
Pretend that we're so into it
Dumb down our intelligence
Just to make us relevant
Sometimes it makes me uhuh
Think the world has gone officially insane (bout to blow my fucking head off) [x4]
Think the world has gone officially insane

Kind of a different video.... but I like it!



For the positively challenged...

Stay away until this mug is empty.
If I didn't laugh, I'd cry.
I took all of my pills and it's not enough.


And for the happy and hopeful....


The Jekyl and Hyde syndrome is something I deal with all the time.....

I think Mr. Hyde is showing up a little too much lately.

All I'm trying to do is live my MF'g life!

Hmmmm......


"Jekyll And Hyde"
There's just so much God damned weight on my shoulders
All I'm trying to do is live my motherfucking life
Supposed to be happy, but I'm only getting colder
Wear a smile on my face, but there's a demon inside
There's just so much God damned weight on my shoulders
All I'm trying to do is live my motherfucking life
Supposed to be happy, but I'm only getting colder
Wear a smile on my face, but there's a demon inside

Oh, yo, yo, there's a demon inside
Oh, yo, yo, just like Jekyll and Hyde
Oh, yo, yo, all this anger inside
Oh, yo, yo, I feel like Jekyll and Hyde

Is there so much God damned weight on your shoulders
That you can't just live your motherfucking life
The story's getting old and my heart is getting colder
I just wanna be Jekyll, but I'm always fighting Hyde
You've got rocks in your head, I can hear them rolling 'round
You can say that you're above it, but you're always falling down
Is there a method to your madness? Is it all about pride?
Everyone I know, they've got a demon inside

Oh, yo, yo, there's a demon inside
Oh, yo, yo, just like Jekyll and Hyde
Oh, yo, yo, all this anger inside
Oh, yo, yo, I feel like Jekyll and Hyde

If I wasn't so deranged, could I ever face the pain?
If I ever were to change, would the song remain the same?
Oh, yo, yo
All I'm trying to do is live my motherfucking life
Oh, yo, yo
Wear a smile on my face, but there's a demon inside
Oh, yo, yo
All I'm trying to do is live my motherfucking life
Oh, yo, yo
Wear a smile on my face, but there's a demon inside

Oh, yo, yo, there's a demon inside
Oh, yo, yo, just like Jekyll and Hyde
Oh, yo, yo, all this anger inside
Oh, yo, yo, I feel like Jekyll and Hyde


And up jumps the Nutribullet with banana, carrots, zucchini, parsley, salt, creatine and protein mix.


Aaah.... I feel Dr. Jekyll returning.


Ground turkey breast with veggies and eggs over spring mix, arugula with grapes and olives.


As a friend of mine would say..... Yikes!

If this video doesn't make you wanna run like hell or do something really sexually deviant.... then go back to sleep!


In This Moment is now officially my top Female Metal Band!

Holy Shit!


Yeah.... even in these chains you can't stop me!


Chasing the Top Gun Homar with a 4 round 30 rep performance.

4 rounds and 20 reps was all I could do.


But considering this guy is 20 years younger than me and about 30 pounds heavier...


I think I'll run a Victory Lap!