What if.... My Life had been Different?

It's been said you shouldn't spend much time analyzing or regretting your past.

What's done is done..... Right?

Well....Kinda but let's take a little trip down My Memory Lane just for the hell of it and see....

What Happens and What We Can Learn....

I take a little different Viewpoint of my Past.

I'm from the History Class that says if you don't learn from your past....

Then you're doomed to repeat it.

I believe and embrace the fact that My History is what made me.  

It is the Who, What, When, Where, How and Why of my current self.

I also believe and have observed, in retrospect of course, that there are "Significant Situations",  Decision blocks in Life's Flowchart and Forks in the Road.....

That materially affect the Path of Life.

So let's do a little Rhetorical "What If" Walk down Memory Lane and see what we get out of it.

WHAT IF I had grown up in a functional home without a Bipolar Dad and a Depressed Mother?

WHAT IF my family had the money for me to pursue my childhood (and lifelong) Passions of Music and Dance?

WHAT IF I had chosen my Natural Bent career of Park Ranger or Game Warden vs the Chemical Currency of Engineering?

WHAT IF I had married my High School Sweetheart Vicky Gregorcyk?

WHAT IF I had chosen the job with Clayton Foods in Sherman Tx vs the job with Dow Chemical in Freeport Tx?

WHAT IF I had not lost all my money in the Stock Market in the 80s?

WHAT IF I had not married my 1st wife?

WHAT IF I had not divorced my 1st wife?

WHAT IF I had not torn my left ACL?

WHAT IF I had stayed at Dow Chemical?

WHAT IF I had been able to control my emotions throughout my Life?

"What If"

I can't find the rhyme in all my reason
Lost sense of time and all seasons
Feel I've been beaten down
By the words of men who have no grounds
Can't sleep beneath the trees of wisdom
When your ax has cut the roots that feed them
Forked tongues in bitter mouths
Can drive a man to bleed from inside out

What if you did?
What if you lied?
What if I avenge?
What if eye for an eye?

I've seen the wicked fruit of your vine
Destroy the man who lacks a strong mind
Human pride sings a vengeful song
Inspired by the times you've been walked on
My stage is shared by many millions
Who lift their hands up high because they feel this
We are one We are strong
The more you hold us down the more we press on

What if you did?
What if you lied?
What if I avenge?
What if eye for an eye?

[Guitar Break]

I know I can't hold the hate inside my mind
'Cause what consumes your thoughts controls your life
So I'll just ask a question
A lonely simple question
I'll just ask one question
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What if you did?
What if you lied?
What if I avenge?
What if eye for an eye?

What if your words could be judged like a crime?

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BkHjFzw1TUg

Does this little exercise benefit me or anyone else?

I dunno.... I'm actually pretty happy with how things have turned out in my life.

While it has been an exercise of the Id, Ego and the Super Ego....

And a Battle of the Mind, Body and Spirit...

I wouldn't have me any other way.

How's that for a little Self Analysis on a Saturday morning?

Carry on World.