Sometimes all we have is the Hope for Morning to get us Through the Darkness

No big secret I spend a lot of time listening to music even while working.

So I was working on a job procedure this morning and had my iPhone going at a subdued volume on an iHeart Flyleaf station and as the songs cued up I was hearing some songs I had heard before while listening to this station and then this song came up and it took me about halfway through it before the running melody and lyrics started to enter my conscious brain.

I stopped my work for 30 seconds, snapped a screenshot of the song and band just as the song was concluding vowing to go back and listen to it again...

And I did....

And I'm glad I did because it just floors me how these musicians come up with these lyrics and then mate them to music and they become...

Magic.

There was no "produced" video for this song on YouTube but a nicely done "Lyrics" version which I thought was even better because it forced me to focus on the lyrics which had a lot of "hit me where it hurts" meaning.

I have had a lot of trouble sleeping  lately partly because of my incessant knee pain and that gives me time to lie awake at night and ponder the mysteries of the universe and the masteries and maladies of my life.

Not sure if that's oh so healthy or not but it does give me time to reflect on where I've been, where I'm at and where I'm going.

As a friend of mine continuously reminds me, Life is all about self-awareness.

Recognizing who you are, what your strengths and weaknesses are and striving everyday to come to grips with your foibles and failures and becoming better despite them.

A better person, A better member of society, A better friend, A better spouse, A better parent....

This song has elements of self-doubt, seeking self-awareness, the old self-help tactic of "Fake it till you Make it" and the incredible imagery of hope in waiting for the Darkness to fade into Dawn.

I think you'll like it..... I know I did.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5e_cbtp4Yo0

"Hope Of Morning"

My mind's a kaleidoscope, it thinks too fast
Blurs all the colors 'til I can't see past
The last mistake, the choice I made
Staring in the mirror with myself to blame
Sometimes I'm afraid of the thoughts inside
Nowhere to hide inside my mind
I'm scared that you'll compare and I'll look a lifetime past repair
I second guess myself to death, I re-solicit every step
What if my words are meaningless? What if my heart's misleading this?
I try to capture every moment as it comes to me
Bottle up the memories and let them keep me company

When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
I will not be giving in tonight

When I'm old and grey, or thirty, or whatever happens first,
I'll need you to reassure me I didn't waste a verse
Or worse, what if my life's work is reduced to just myself
Like never let you get a word in, while I dissect my mental health
Or lack thereof, whatever, there's too many things to track
I really can't remember if I'm insane or insomniac
Now days, all the kids want crazy, wanna diagnose themselves
Trade up made up epidemics, pass around prescription pills
But my disorder can't be cured by a bottle, blade, or dose
Self-disgust and selfishness tend to hold me awfully close
But I don't wanna let you see that, I don't want my friends to know
Self-disgust and selfishness take me everywhere I go

When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
I will not be giving in tonight

Try as I might to keep it together
Why is recovery taking forever
Fool the whole world, just until I get better
I'm terrified I'll be faking forever
On and on I wonder what went wrong inside my head
I don't have to have the answers, but tonight I wish I did
All the pain I can't explain away won't fade
All the the secrets silenced by the shame
Don't make me say it [x7]

When the hope of morning starts to fade in me
I don't dare let darkness have its way with me
And the hope of morning makes me worth the fight
I will not be giving in tonight

My Life of Discovery is often led by my Discovery of Music.

Just like in Life, I keep trying new things, learning and listening to new things and new people and being inspired, motivated and amazed by the Magic of Music.

P.S.  Hope for Morning is beautiful and then I watched the next video by Icon for Hire cued up on YouTube - "The Grey"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nQtzSmv_9D4

And I was blown away.....

Again.